his glory appears

hisgloryappears — Thu, 24 Mar 2011 18:58:37 +0000

I hate to say this but it’s gotten to the point where I’m like, you know no matter what shit happens, I don’t care. and it’s not because I have so much trust in Him but because it feels like I don’t care anymore if shit wants to happen. No matter how badly I want something, it’s always like- no, you can’t have anything you want. and now if He wants to give this to me for a brief moment and then snatch it away just while I’m just starting to learn how to live again. seriously, whatever. but that’s life, right?

hisgloryappears — Sun, 20 Mar 2011 20:17:23 +0000

oh, i want this so badly. please let it be.

Daddy.

hisgloryappears — Sat, 12 Mar 2011 22:18:44 +0000

He used to hold my hand every night while he lay beside me and waited for me to fall asleep. We used to all sleep over in my parent’s room over the weekend and I remember reaching up from my mattress on the floor to hold his hand. I always slept on Daddy’s side. He was everything to me; invincible. He used to cover my ears with his big hands in the cinema when it got too loud. He used to bring special gifts for me and he always protected me when I was scared. I knew everything would be alright if he was around. I always knew we had something special. My first memory is of me sitting on mom’s car outside our house and I was talking to him, I asked him how old I was and he replied, “3+”. He always gave me the best and never tried to save when it came to me. When I got sick, he made sure I had the best doctors and spent thousands a night on a large room to myself in the hospital just so I was comfortable. I always knew he loved me special.

But then I grew up. I know he pushes me only because he wants me to succeed so badly. I love him because he could have been selfish like other dads and made me stay behind. You know what they say, ‘if you love something, let it go.’

hisgloryappears — Fri, 11 Feb 2011 16:18:54 +0000

to be able to say that i love where i’m at

hisgloryappears — Thu, 27 Jan 2011 15:06:04 +0000

“For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.

And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.” Psalm 27:5-6

I am so, so scared that nothing will come out of this. MY FUTURE IS ON YOUR HANDS.

hisgloryappears — Thu, 13 Jan 2011 12:19:30 +0000

always wishing i was somewhere else

hisgloryappears — Sun, 09 Jan 2011 13:05:13 +0000

i REALLY wish this life of mine had a ‘start over’ button right now. God, i can’t wait to leave. 8 weeks please pass quickly, i am going mad.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy;

hisgloryappears — Fri, 03 Dec 2010 14:17:05 +0000

never wanted something so badly; never fought for something so hard.

hisgloryappears — Sun, 14 Nov 2010 15:17:10 +0000

3 more months, i can do thisssss!!!!

hisgloryappears — Sun, 07 Nov 2010 16:21:13 +0000

feel so fucking trapped